Update

Well, I'm now working as a full-fledged nurse and you'll be happy to know that I haven't messed up and killed anyone yet. :) Being a nurse really isn't as scary as I thought it'd be--the hospital where I work has many resources and safety catches that help keep patients safe. Granted, that doesn't mean I don't feel stupid constantly due to the fact that there's so much to know, only that my patients are safe. Work each night is a bit like a roller coaster--you walk onto the floor having no idea what to expect and once you're there you just hold on and face whatever comes your way. You have to just keep fighting to do your best until the magical hour when the next shift comes in and you're able to give report and leave. That's not saying every night is bad, it's just you don't know what to expect. Some nights are slow, some are busy, and some can change in the blink of an eye.

I decided to take this semester off of school but I hope to start back up in January (ugh). With the play and all, this summer ended up not being much of a break so I needed some time to get caught up on my personal things which are MANY. (It's amazing how many things you're able to neglect during nursing school.) I also took the semester off to spend time with Janessa before her mission and have the ability to focus on work as well as a few other things.

Change

Maybe it's the cooling weather or the changing leaves, but I sense change in the air and it's a little bit terrifying. In fact, I believe the gears have already been turning on many major changes. I've graduated and have moved out for good. Clint's moving on to whatever his next goal in life is. Janessa's leaving on a mission. Brownie has passed on and Sanno & Henry will never be the same little cat family. Tonight Janessa and I were talking about just how many things are likely to change before she returns from Peru and they are many! We humans can handle changes in bits and pieces but when you quantify everything that could happen over a longer amount of time it quickly becomes overwhelming. Right now I'm not really feeling the same excitement and zeal for the future that I've felt in my life up until now. These next couple of years should be interesting!